Endless Possibilities—Too Much?

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The world is so full of a number of things, I’m sure we should all be as happy as kings.

                                                Robert Louis Stevenson, from A Child’s Garden of Verses 

My mother used to perkily quote this to us kids when I was growing up. I remember rolling my eyes, since it was her response to my brother and I on the rare occasions we complained we were bored. I did love A Child’s Garden of Verses when I was young, though, and this quote popped into my head today as I thought about what’s been happening in an online course on intuitive art I’ve been taking these past few weeks.

The focus of the course is essentially to practice painting from our bellies and hearts rather than our heads. To become curious about, and trust, what happens when we paint following only those inner cues that fill us with energy. (What color am I drawn to? Which brush? What does my hand want to do with it? What next?) To become less interested in how and what we should paint than in what we want to paint. Which means we have to become more invested in the process of painting than in the finished product.

Staring at the class Facebook page where we post our process and our creations, I am delighted at the vast array of shape, color and image our creativity has called into being (not to mention the wildly individual personal stories that live in the art-making). I think the possibilities must be endless!

Endless, that is, if we let ourselves flow.

But my classmates and I all hear insistent critical voices that declare what we are painting is “too yellow,” “too weird,” “too cute,” too happy,” “too scary,” “too sloppy,” “too controlled,”—and on and on. Also endless?

And wow, those voices drain the play, the joy and surprise out of everything.

To exorcise those voices we’ve been making “too” paintings. We each made a list of the critical “too” voices we hear when we paint, selected one and painted it to the utmost. I plunged into my “too weird” painting with glee, letting myself paint whatever I was drawn to, especially if it was weird. The photo is my “too weird” painting. I also did “too childish” and “too amateurish” paintings. It felt so good and free to do this. Sheer play!

too weird

(Got done with the “too weird” painting and immediately thought, “gee, I can be weirder than that!—can’t wait to do another and get weirder.” Though since then the label is becoming increasingly meaningless to me. Which also delights me.)

So when I’m painting I’m learning to listen to the excited “let’s try this!” voice and to ignore the fun-killing “whoa—too much—you better try to tone that down!” voice.

And a universe of possibilities opens up again.

Can I dare to do this in my life outside of painting? Respond to my inner critic’s fear about being too weird with playing at being weirder still? “Too bold” with being bolder? “Too depressing” with allowing the tears to flow? “Too happy” with radiating more joy?

If I do that, will the world end?

Or will a vast world of new possibilities open?

Can I trust my inner cues to create my life in a free, flowing, surprising way that nourishes my Soul–my Creativity, my Joy, my Child’s Heart, my Elder’s Wisdom?

Hey, wanna’ be “too much” together?

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10 Comments

  1. Just catching up on reading yur blogs. Loved your “too weird” painting – makes me want to paint something right now!

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    • Anne Peek

      Good!!

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  2. Wonderful post!

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    • Anne Peek

      I’m glad it spoke to you!

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  3. Anne, awesome post. I’ve been called ‘too positive,’ and ‘too smiley.’ For some strange reason, I take that comment and it spurs me on to be even MORE ‘too positive!” IN the same way, I love how you use energy coming at you that was meant to put you down, and turn it around to a positive energy!

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    • Anne Peek

      Yeah, whatever we can do to give ourselves permission to be who we are seems like a good idea. Especially if it’s playful…..

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  4. Wonderful post, Anne!

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    • Anne Peek

      I’m glad it resonated with you!

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  5. Aloha Annie,
    Yes! I want to be “too much” together … yay!!! This is a great post … I loved the way you wove in the weird, weirder, weirdest paintings! Thanks!
    Catherine

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    • Anne Peek

      Thanks. I’m chuckling, too, because the painting I just finished, following my instincts and paying no attention to “weirdness” at all, may be the weirdest yet–I think the word has no more charge for me at all! Which is such a light feeling.

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